This book is about the author, writer, artist, John Doemen. The name John Doemen Is a pseudo name which embodies and equates to the X given to Muslims until they finish their education and have gained knowledge of self. The name Doemen is like a name given to those when they are unknown to others. The name John is equivalent to a trick a customer. I have chosen this name because of the symbolism of being African American born in Brooklyn Ny, robbed of culture, language, feed self hate, taught self love. Follow me as I jot down my journey my stages of regression and evolution. These are my experiences these are my stories these are our lessons.